I have missed you.
My absence will be explained in a later post.
Because its really boring.
It involves neurosciency stuff.
Do you all remember awhile back when I posted a vlog and had you ask me questions?
And then i got like 30 questions and posted a vlog and answered like 3..
then sorta stopped...
Well i thought maybe it is time to answer some of the questions
since there are a few i still frequently get here and there.
Most of the questions had to due with the whole modeling thing.
So here it goes.
Your own personal tour into my past life.
I started modeling at age 14.
I knew someone that knew someone that knew someone in the industry.
I went on a casting (audition for modeling)
and booked a job.
After that I got an Agency.
Then after that i switched and got another Agency.
and after that I got my first complex.
It came tied up in a little box and bow.
It was a body image complex.
My complex said I was too fat,
and probably could use some plastic surgery.
It became my new bff that i wanted to drop kick
because I'm a lady.
So i hung out with her anyway.
I continued to work in LA and Orange County.
mainly print and editorial stuff.
A billboard, commercial, and music video here and there.
After 8 years of trying to fit into someones size 0 expectations
I decided it was time to call it quits.
go back to college.
get a real job.
Not that modeling isn't a real job..
I guess it is.
Sometimes you can model so hard your face hurts.
I do not work anymore..
except for as a favor to friends with companies..
or for fun with the photographers I love.
Someone asked me if I felt judged because I used to model..
because the connotation is that models are dumb and shallow.
And to be honest,
Which is why I always wanted to have something else that I did.
And why I continued to stay in academics..
and eventually moved on to get my Masters in Neuroscience.
I wanted to help change the world in a positive way.
Not contribute to it in a negative way.
I Love photography.
I love art.
And i think beautiful images are created using beautiful people.
And I am drawn to that.
But i am much too sensitive to fight for the limelight in a world full of "beautiful" models.
And i need to be using my brain to make me feel like i have a purpose.
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